evolving again
I just came back from a two and a half week trip where I didn't work much. Before I left, my work was beginning to change, but with taking a break, it really had a chance to shift. So I'm finding that my work has morphed again.
One thing that was happening before I left, was that I was suddenly finding myself feeling more and more drained by the energy healing specifically. I was guided to move towards toning instead of just using my focus and breath. I also felt like I wanted to let my mind go more and move into a deeper state of trance, without tracking any information. I felt less inclined to look for specific information and when I would ask questions, especially the 'what needs to happen for x to occur' type, often I'd get a pure energy shift as the answer, rather than conceptual or intellectual information that I could relate to my client.
I've been letting myself go with this change and the more I do the easier the whole process gets. The drained feeling has gone and instead I feel mightily calm and whole at the end. I've been explaining to clients about how I'm working differently and a few have reported results that they thought were awesome, others I haven't heard back from yet - maybe they aren't sure what to expect (I wasn't at first either, but now I know it's working well). The informational component has been coming back though, which I am glad about.
It seems like my old tools are being retired - like I was trying to lift heavier loads (moving more energy per session) with tools that weren't optimum. From dial-up to broadband I suppose. I really have to trust in the 'mindless' these days...it has all the answers!
I did some work on the friend I was staying with one night and it was quite a long session of the new type. I could feel how deep in I was and by the end I was in a tremendously altered state, very out of body. I had the strong realization that the places where I think I am making my life decisions are not where they are being made - it's somewhere completely different. Now I've had this realization before, but I could see how I'd lost track of that knowledge. It was very helpful in reminding me to let go of thinking I can control anything from the personality level.
I took a few workshops in sound healing in 2001 from Simon Heather (he's great) and learned an easy method of using toning to do physical healing. I guess because physical healing isn't really the thing that interests me, I never used it much after the course was over. Some of the general principals of sound healing were useful, improving my understanding and my singing, but I didn't integrate any techniques into my intuitive work. Now it's coming back in a very different way, blending itself seemlessly with the way I have been doing energy healing and getting intuitive information. It's easily focussed on any issue, which is so interesting to me - I can use the tones to release emotions, beliefs or idea structures, just as I've been doing without it, but the process feels streamlined. I'm loving it.
Another aspect I'm loving is sometimes getting the sense of a 'song' in someone's energy field. I start off with plain long tones but sometimes I get guided more towards a definite melodic motif which then causes certain things to release.
life just keeps teaching me...I'm grateful.
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